decisions decisions

I've been trying to arrive at a decision over the past 2 weeks. I've got to make a firm decision and a response later this week. However, I'm just unable to do so, or think straight with my head. The heart butts in and strews all sorts of emotions into the process. I have to admit, I like thoughts from the heart - because, when I think about what coulda, shoulda, woulda happen - the ones from the heart seem much more appeasing - at least for a while. However, in comes the mind (you know like those nuns we had in high school) preaching away the potential realities. Both sides make valid points, I guess I sort of want to have the positives from both - have the cake and eat it too? Come on people, what is the point of having a New York cheesecake if you cannot eat it huh?

Confession: most often I suck at making decisions, I'm NO good at it. Usually sit on the fence, and someone/something just pushes me over. This is something I really need to work on, put on a brave face, and take that darn plunge. I'm upset at my inability to make firm decisions, because most often, I choose an option and backtrack, or start thinking on the "what if's" to possibly retract - arrrgh!

When hit with similar trying times, I usually ring up friends (spread across the globe), and age them a decade or two with my talk. It comes to a point, wherein I have some folks plead mercy. The ones who know me too well usually jump ship first -whilst the ones whom I can always count on continue to stick with me & my stress, for a quest :)

Anyhooo, I've got time until this weekend. I hope whatever I choose to do, or "whatever happens, happens for the better". It's funny, because this phrase is the motto of my life - yet, so out of reach in reality?

Yalla, time to call my shrink.